The Day Josh Groban Learned I Exist

I know it's been awhile since I've written a blog on my personal account and not on my Reality Check blog but there just hasn't been much to talk about....until now.  Last Wednesday (July, 27, 2011) I went to the Josh Groban concert at the Verizon Center in Washington D.C.; now I knew that this night would be amazing but I had no clue just how amazing it would become!  Before the show began you could text in questions for him and 3 would be chosen and given to him to read/answer during the show.  I texted in a question thinking that it would never get chosen but what did I have to lose...well I was wrong because it did get chosen!! 

My question was the 3rd and final question and it took me about 5 seconds to realize that it was my name and seat information that Josh had just read...I then proceeded to jump out of my seat and scream.  My question read like this "Today is my 22nd birthday and it is my wish to have you sing to me.  Will you please make this the best day of my life?  PS-You owe me and I can prove it."  That in turn provoked some "I'm not the father" comments which was just fine with me!  That idea, even just for a few seconds, was more then I ever imagined he would say to that (and to me) but it was perfect.  Then came the big moment....he left the stage and came straight to me (I had floor seats and was at the end of a row)!  He stood there alternating between holding my hand and having his arm around me and proceeded to sing me the best rendition of Happy Birthday I have ever heard, along with the entire arena.  I stood there beaming, looking into his eyes and knowing that he was looking back.  When he was done he gave me a hug which was one of the most amazing things that has ever happened to me and certainly something I will never forget.

It is several days later and I'm still in disbelief.  I find myself constantly wondering whether it really happened and then I close my eyes and can see him looking straight into my eyes, I can feel his arm around me while he was singing as if to keep me from floating, I can hear him saying my name multiple times, I can smell the delicious scent that stayed on my clothes for the rest of the night, and I can feel his arms around me and his scruff on my face; I then know that it really happened.  I am living proof that dreams really do come true...this was one dream that I NEVER thought would come true, but it did.  It is a night, a feeling, and a memory that will never leave me....it is a special moment that he and I shared in front of an audience of thousands that nobody will ever be able to have, it is mine and mine only.  It is without a doubt the best night of my life and will be incredibly hard to ever top!  Josh Groban knows that I exist in this world and to be able to say that is a dream come true in itself, the rest is just icing on an already amazing cake.

Graduation

I'M A COLLEGE GRADUATE!!!

It's official....I have a BS in Psychology from the University of Mary Washington....I really did it.  I feel like half of graduation is lost on me because I'll be back at UMW in 3 months for grad school so it doesn't seem very final to me.  I thought I'd just mention some memorable moments of the day instead of going the sappy, sentimental route.

• Not being able to sleep the night before, half due to the loud and obnoxious people still partying next door and outside at 2am and half due to being too anxious.
• How freaking complicated it is to put on that hood!
• Losing my shoe on campus walk during the procession and having to stop to put it back on.
• Being able to turn my tassel from the right side to the left.
• Having my name called, walking across the stage, shaking President Hurley's hand, and getting my diploma
• Cheering and clapping for my friends as they walk across the stage and get their diplomas
• Being hit in the head by a mortar board cap while everyone else in the vicinity avoided them...welcome to my life
• Seeing Andrew before hand without any weirdness, only smiles....and the fact that he decided to wear khaki shorts and boat shoes to graduation
• Hearing my parents cheer and yell my name throughout the ceremony
• Getting the traditional parent/daughter picture that eluded us at my high school graduation

It's been a fun 4 years Mary Wash....see you again in 3 months for grad school and student teaching!

Good Day Gone Bad

For the last couple years I have hated April 15th and it has nothing to do with the fact that it is tax day.  It used to be a happy day but now it is tainted with what once was and will never be again.  It symbolizes one of the best things and one of the worst things that has happened to me; it is a day that I would rather forget.

On this day 7 years ago someone made me extremely happy, and then proceeded to break my heart 2 years later.  I used to think that it was solely him that I missed but I think that is only part of the truth.  I think I also miss what he represented, the future that I saw that eventually disappeared.

I think part of me always thought that it wasn't really the end, that it was just a case of right person wrong time.  I guess that isn't the case since he is getting married in August to someone that isn't me.  I have to accept that the dream I held onto for so long is just that....a dream.  I'll never have what I thought I would and that's a hard one to swallow.

April 15th is always a day that I dread.  I don't want to dread it anymore and each year I think that it will be the last time that I am left feeling empty at the thought of it, but it never happens.  I need this to be the last year that I care about this day...I need to find a new dream, a new reality.  I want to be able to remember that day and those two years with a smile on my face and while I'm a lot closer then I used to be, I still have a ways to go.  Here's hoping this is the last year April 15th will be a day that makes me feel empty and incomplete.

Crazy Life

It's been awhile since I've posted....thank you life for that one.  I've barely had time to breathe these last few weeks let alone actually sit down and write about absolutely nothing of importance when you really think about it.  I figured I just give the highlights of the last few weeks...here goes nothing.

I was officially accepted into the Master's of Elementary Education program at UMW...woohoo!!  Even though I didn't get the specialization I really wanted I'm choosing to believe that everything happens for a reason.  In the long run it doesn't really matter anyways...I'm getting my Master's and that's all that matters!

I also have a place to live next year which is such a relief!!  I'm leasing a room in this cute house and the rent is really good!  It'll be interesting sharing a house with 3 other people that I've never even met before but at least I have somewhere to live!

There is less then 1 month til graduation and I am so ready for everything to be over and done with.  I'm not looking forward to having to say goodbye to all of my friends but I'm more then ready to move on to Master's year and teaching full time!

I have officially completed my duties as an officer in the Student Education Association!  The Student Teacher Reception went off without a hitch and I can't tell you how much stress that has been causing me!  It's so weird to think that this time next year I will be the one attending the STR and not the one organizing and executing it!  It's scary and exciting all at the same time!

That's all I can think of at the moment...I'm really going to try and be better about writing things as they happen...but no promises (at least for the next couple weeks)!

Spring Break

This year's Spring Break was probably the one that was the most all over the place.  Here's a quick rundown of what happened.

1. My dad had shoulder surgery a week and a half ago and can't move his arm at all.  Due to the surgery he was running a fever that ranged from 99 to 101.6 for a week.  I played nurse for a good portion of the week and got really good at reading the old school glass thermometers.  Luckily his fever finally broke and he's getting back to his normal self...minus the use of his right arm.

2. The most exciting thing that happened over break was I got tickets to see Josh Groban in concert on July 27th!!  But I didn't just get tickets....I have FLOOR TICKETS!!!  I will be in section 1 at the Verizon Center in row M which means I am 13 rows from the stage!!!  I'm on the aisle too so who knows who may walk by!!  SOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!

3. I got dragged to the doctor because my mom has been worried about how run down I am and there's some unexplained things going on and long story short I have been advised not to work this summer.  Even though I feel like I should, it probably really is best for me to focus on myself and my health for a few months.  Plus I have to look my best for the concert....you never know what may happen!

Now I'm back at school and I have 2 months until graduation....it seems like such a short amount of time and such a long amount of time all at once.  I just know what I am so over with this whole school thing and just want to be done.

I Just Haven't Met You Yet

So I meant to write this yesterday but as always life just got in the way.  As you all know yesterday was Valentine's Day, a day which I dread every single year.  This year I really tried to be good and not dwell on the fact that I am alone for another year and how jealous I was of all the couples celebrating...and I did better then I expected.

And then a song came on my iTunes and it reminded me of my "anthem" (Glee reference from tonight's episode...forgive me).  The song is "Haven't Met You Yet" by Michael Buble and it is amazing in every way imaginable.  As long as I can believe that he is out there somewhere and that one day (hopefully sooner rather than later) we fill find each other I will be okay.  For the first time in a long time I didn't spend the day completely miserable..maybe that's a sign of things to come.  They do say after all that you find love when you aren't trying to find it...so that's what I'm trying to do.

In honor of this life changing song I leave you with these lyrics....

I might have to wait, I'll never give up
I guess it's half timing, and the other half's luck
Wherever you are, whenever it's right
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life

And I know that we can be so amazing
And, baby, your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility

And somehow I know that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work, so we can work to work it out
And I promise you, kid, I give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet

Me & Football....Who Would Have Thought?

Football is something that I hated 5 years ago...I thought it was pointless and didn't understand or get the appeal of it at all.  But slowly something changed and over the last couple years it has become increasingly evident that I have caught the football bug.  If you had told me all those years ago that I would be watching every game my team played (including those not televised), reading articles, keeping up with stats, and wearing a jersey after a big win I probably would have told you that you needed to be committed.  All those things are a reality now though and when I really think about it, it baffles me in some respects.  If someone had told me that I would be this invested mentally and emotionally in the New England Patriots I would not have believed them....but I am.  They are my boys and I love them as weird as that may sound.

My evolution into a NE Patriots fanatic has led me to a more introspective observation...one that goes beyond sports and touches on change and who I am and who I have become.  I am not even close to the person I was this time 4 or 5 years ago...and I am so thankful for that.  I didn't like the person I was and I didn't like how I felt all the time.  Now I'm not saying that I'm completely happy with who I am now but I am a lot closer to being the person I want to be.  Change can be good sometimes and for me the last 5 years, good and bad, have made me someone I can be proud of.  There will always be things that I don't like or wish I could change but I am no longer that high school girl who felt like no matter what she did or said she wouldn't fit in.  I know who I am and I know where I want to go...that is something to be happy about.

Who would have thought that football could lead to something so philosophical?